Ten

I want to scream my lungs out at you. You have disappointed me beyond belief. You’ve gone through so many changes these past four years. All of which I now think have been for the worst. You’re not the person I once cared so deeply about. You’ve become a totally different person. I don’t know how we could have lost you like we have. Like Lucy, I’ve forgiven you time and time again. Now I just don’t know why I should care anymore. I’ve finally seen what everyone else has seen in you. I’ve been oblivious to how you’ve treated me and how you’ve changed. I wanted to believe that you were still the person I once fell in love with. My eyes have been open to who you truly are now. I feel like I’ve lost a great friend. I don’t know whether I should be angry with you or if I should just try to continue seeing you how I always have. I don’t want to lose our friendship. I really enjoy being with you and talking to you but you’re just not the same. I miss the old you.

Nine

My mom was watching that infomercial with the upside down tomato plant and we had the idea to make our own. So basically: tomato plant + milk jug + dirt = awesomeness. Our plant is thriving =] I found out that there's a lot of benefits to growing some plants upside down such as better air circulation and it is better protected from insects who can't to get. I hear cucumbers do really well upside down too. It seems pretty cool. At the moment our plant has 19 little flower buds. It even has it's own little protector. I can't wait until the tomatoes start coming in. Yum.

Eight

I had a lovely Mother's Day with my mommy. We left our house at 5:15 am and drove to Hana. We beat all of the lame tourist traffic. Woohoo. At a stop along the way we saw like twenty chickens. I love chickens... sometimes. I just don't like their noises. This one was adorable. It couldn't stay still for the life of it so I couldn't get a good picture of it.

Oh and here's an amusing sign we saw. Haha.

We were going to go to the Seven Sacred Pools but it was closed because people are replacing a bridge. So we went to Hamoa Bay. It was beautifulll. I swear that sand was the softest sand I've ever stepped on. After that we drove upcountry and I saw SHEEP. In case you didn't know, I absolutely adore sheep. If i could, I would have one as a pet. These were prettyyy weird looking. I mean it's not their fault but seriously. Wtf man XD but I still love them.

Well that was the last Mother's Day I will have shared with my mom for a very long time. It was epic just like her =]

Seven

I've decided that I need to write on here more often. Whether it be something I've been up to or just how I'm feeling. So here we go...

Yesterday was very fun. Rox and I decided to go to Outback. Cheesey fries and a chicken cesar salad = YUM. Ate, drank, and chatted with Rox. I love talking to Roxanne. I feel like I could talk to her forever. Which is cool since I'm usually not much of a talker. Chelsea joined us after a while. I always love being around her. There's something about her that I find amazing. I got a text from Sean. Him and Jason the 2nd came and got some food. That was cool since we don't hang out with Sean very much anymore. Chels and I have adopted Jason the 2nd as our minion since he is ninja like us. He's quite an interesting lad. Roxanne still fails at being ninja. Sorry Rox. Chels made Roxanne suck blue cheese/celery/butter out of a straw for $20. HAHA. Rox will never know what excatly we were all laughing about. It's part of our ninjas ways that she will just never understand. So we left Outback, dropped off Jason the 2nd at Taco Bell, picked up Levi, Blake, Mac, Jono, Saumalu, Wyatt, and Will, and headed to Launiopoko. We had an EPIC time playing hide and go seek extremeee. Everyone hid while Rox and Saumalu stayed in Polo (Rox's car) trying to find us. Oh man that was fun. After a couple of hours we went to McDonald's to eat. I love nights like that. So simple but so awesome.

Tomorrw I'm going to Hana with my mommy for Mother's Day =] I'm gonna miss her so much.

Six

I've spent the last couple of days at home by myself. It's been nice. I've had plenty of time to think of everything that has been on my mind. Before all of my thoughts and emotions had been mixed and confused. They still are, but not nearly as much. I have realized a lot. I think I've finally moved on. It's not something I want to do but I think I have to. I can't expect myself to be able to change everything around me. It's just not at all possible and I think I'm okay with that. I'm gonna miss it. The way things used to be. Even how they are now. I'll miss it all. The future holds a lot. I know for a fact that I'll struggle with all of the changes, but it'll be alright. I'll be surrounded by people I love. It'll be tough but I'm excited to face everything that comes my way.

Five

I'm going to Washington State University Vancouver. It's official. Not my first choice but it's all good. I'm sure it will be an easier transition for me. Plus I'll be able to visit my friends in Seattle. And my family there and my grandma will be pleased I'm sure. Go Cougars!

So Roxanne's mom, Bart, and my mom are all on the mainland for a week. It's pretty sweet. We're getting a taste of life without parentals. It's super epic. This weekend is gonna rock =]

Four

You know those tv shows where something that happened in the previous episode doesn't affect anything in the next episode? I wish my life was like that right now. I wish we could all wake up the next day and leave the the past behind us.